Last night was the first night ever, since I've been free from abuse, that I woke to the sound of snoring, and I did not have the automatic impulse to run, to leave the room. I actually listened to the snoring and calmly drifted off to sleep. I think I make have broken through that particular demon. My back hurts a bit this morning, as do some other areas but, I did sleep on the floor all night. I think I will have to heal gradually rather than instantly. I am just trying to be gentle with myself. Sometimes when something is hurting I make myself think he no longer has any power over me. It is over. Maybe if I keep telling myself this I will start to really feel healed deep down.
I am waiting for the counselor to call me back.
Went for a walk this morning . I'm so grateful for my friendships with both my parents. I have a lot to be thankful for.
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