My new niece will be born tomorrow. Calin Marie Coates by cesarean. I'm anxious to hear that everyone gets through it with health.
I had a horrible day yesterday. I sat outside on the deck and read for a bit while Tim fixed the pool water and mowed the lawn. I was in such pain. Finally, I took a bath and used the jets. It relieved the pain while I was in the tub and for exactly 15 minutes after I got out. Then it all came back.
We were watching Harry Potter and I got a little weepy. I find that I actually cry very little. But I yearn to cry often, I just can't or don't for some reason. The frustration and helplessness and pure sadness of my situation just builds to be too much. sometimes I feel like I absolutely don't know how I'm coping. I'm sure its just because I live only one day at a time.
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